This is the full image of the background in my blog. We were leaving Singapore and I saw this view through the plane’s window. I just woke up from a nap then and I was absolutely mesmerized by the view that greeted me. I’ve always wanted to be able to paint clouds so I took this as a reference picture. I haven’t exactly painted it yet but I hope to.
As a sort of lost person, I don’t really know what to do. I want to be able to explore every nook and cranny, see the possibilities, take all the oppurtunities and the chances. I want my circle to grow bigger. I want my world to expand. I want to go out there and take a step in the big city, and I want to find out who I am.
I trust that everything will come in its time though.
Right now, I could settle for rainy days, walks to the park, and just writing. I don’t know why but I just really miss the rain. I love it so much. I am also in to writing, I want to improve my skills. I’m sorry by the way that I haven’t written for a while. If you have anything to help me with my writing, like tips or prompts or a website or whatever, please feel free to tell me. I would really appreciate it. The bliss of writing makes me so giddy, I forget everything that isn’t going well in my life right now. I know we don’t really interact much but this is just a thank you for all those who followed me. It makes me happy to think that someone actually is looking forward to what I have to say. Thank you so much.
This is a short poem I made for a another friend who used to be really close. Reading it again, I realize it applies to actually more than one person.
I’m sorry I can’t keep you company anymore
and I’m sorry I can’t comfort you.
I’m sorry if at times I reply late
and I’m sorry if I don’t reply at all.
I’m sorry if I don’t smile at you like I used to
and I’m sorry if I just shrug you off.
I’m sorry we’re not what we used to be anymore
and I’m sorry for slipping away.
Last night I wasn’t able to post properly, I mean I think I published something but it was blank. Weird. Anyway so here is a post to make up for it and yes, I am still following Blogging 101. Today’s post is supposed to be about what post idea made me want to make my blog. Well actually, it wasn’t a post. It was more of a remembrance that has an inspired post.
I was thinking about how “misreable my life was” and “how- oh wait. I don’t have a life.” when I remembered about how much movies I’ve watched the past months and they’re just “catching up” movies. Like old movies that are fantastic but I haven’t watched them and I had a love for them. So the word “geek” just came up in my head and I remembered “Wait didn’t I have this wordpress account thing with the word ‘geek’ in the URL?”
Yes actually. And the title and URL are almost practically the same but I have this thing of having a lot of e-mails and forget which one I use for which website or app so… You know. yeah. That blog was inspired by a post (which sadly i can’t/ am too tired to find) of a fellow schoolmate. She was talking about a lot of things and I don’t remember much but I remember it was great and was being a phenomenon around Facebook. So I wanted to make one too and there we have it. Ta-da!
I’m going to keep this post short and simple this time. I’m really tired, it’s the first day I’ve been out with friends for a really long time and being with people actually takes a lot of my energy because there’s a lot of talking and interacting.
Thank you for reading again! (Also, I’m thinking of a tagline but I’m not sure what so I’ll just say bye now.) 🙂
(Originally I thought I posted this last night but for some reason it turned out blank :/)
Okay so hey, I’ve decided to explain my blog title, tagline and URL. Let’s start with the URL.
It’s not as if I felt the need to distinguish myself from blondes, I’m not saying anything like that. I don’t really believe the stereotypes where they say blondes are dumb, actually I think saying that is quite stupid. I don’t think the color of our hair (or our skin for that matter) defines who we are.
The URL was inspired by the song “Thank You For The Music” from Mamma Mia. I’ve always loved musicals and I also love singing along with them. This song in particular is one of my favorites because I’ve always related to it. Except for the fact that I’m not really that much of a singer (oh how this breaks my heart into tiny pieces people just step all over) and I am not “the girl with golden hair”. I always thought that line differentiates Sophie from the others plus i thought that was a beautiful way of saying something. “Golden hair”. (Listen to video and continue reading! :D)
And so I thought about making the song my life motto (not really, but you know) and the song almost fit my entire life except I really don’t have golden hair. My hair is black (and now streaked with a bit of red). And I remember a phrase Anne said (from Anne of Green Gables) that there was a girl with “raven black hair”. I thought it was brilliant and so we have “raven haired”.
Geek, well, I started calling myself a geek just lately. I mean it was only nerd at first with my glasses, freckles, and high grades but I started getting in to computer programming, movies, and films. We have a coding class in school and although I don’t like school that much, coding is pretty fun. We only did the basics so I’m trying to explore more now.
I discovered my love for movies when I realized how many films I haven’t watched. Can you believe I am 11 years late on Lord of The Rings, like wow, maybe I have been living in a shell. I started to watch a lot of movies with my dad. And I started loving them. My dad taught me how to look at a movie and to see how a character develops, to observe the setting, and to pay attention to the plots.
I now define geek as “someone who isn’t afraid to show what he or she loves”. I like defining my words. I also take nerd as a compliment instead of being annoyed. I just think of it as “Wow you actually admitted I’m smarter than you, thanks”. (Although to be honest I don’t like being called smart.)
Moving on to the title and tagline we have “I’d Rather Be In Neverland: the insignificant life rants and let outs of a normal high school geek”. If you’d ask me who my favorite Disney princess was when I was younger, I honestly wouldn’t be able to answer. It’s not because I like them all (but I probably did, my mom says I had this whole DVD collection of Disney films) it’s just that I don’t remember watching princesses. My entire childhood was basically Dinosaur, Winnie the Pooh, and Peter Pan.
I just really wanted to fly and go to Neverland. Ever since I transferred schools, I’ve experienced a lot of changes such as having to live in a dorm, having 240 batch mates, and losing my swimming pool. I began to be insecure about myself and it was hard for me to make friends in such a new environment. So with the hard times going on I couldn’t help but wish I was just in Neverland. Sometimes I still wish that.
The purpose of this blog is to just explain what’s been going on in my life. I find it hard to talk to friends because I feel like I’m taking up too much of their time and I feel as if I annoy them. I also tend to overthink so it’s hard not being able to express how I feel. So that’s about it I guess.
I have a little something for you to do. Since I talked about Neverland and my childhood, why not reflect on yours? Share a story. You can link it in the comments if you like.
Thanks so much for reading, I’ll stop writing this post now. Have sweet blogging dreams 🙂
Hiiii everyone I’m Nikki , a high school student trying to find a way through this hectic scramble we call life. And while we make our journey, one can’t help but feel a bit bottled up especially for a person like me who has friends but doesn’t really have the courage to speak up. I’m afraid of opinions against me and being judged. Though I realize that it’s normal, I’d like to change that and this is why I’m here. I want to be a blogger to express how I feel and I want to blog BIG. But of course, how can I do that with my shallow grammar and shyness?
I’ve decided to start blogging and possibly find a let out, a hideaway, a place to spill out everything, away from everyone i know, and everyone at school. If they find me then so be it. But hopefully they don’t. 😉
So here’s a little something about myself. I eat a humongous share of cake every 26th of February. I like swimming and painting. Music is a big part of my life, I like playing instruments although my parents don’t really encourage it. I listen to a wide range of music ranging from classical to punk rock. I also like writing. I’ve been wanting to write a story but it seems as though I don’t have the skills to even come up with a nice plot. I used to write poems though, and sometimes I still do. Whenever I see something beautiful or something eye-catching I just start writing and saving it in my phone notes. So I hope I can share that here. I like watching movies with my dad, it’s like he feeds them to me. So far the best one I’ve seen is The Hobbit: An Unexpected Journey. I also like Sherlock Holmes, Nancy Drew and a bit of The Hardy Boys. I also may be slightly addicted to Peter Pan.
Basically, I’m a geek and therefore you have my URL.
I’ll be talking about the things I like such as food, music, movies, and books. I’ll also be blogging about how stressing school is because my school is one helluva school kinda different. Also, since I’m new I’ll be doing the things from Blogging 101 and such so don’t be confused when you see it’s this late and I used the zerotohero tag.
I look forward to meeting everyone, thank you for reading this and I hope you tune in for more 🙂
I'd Rather Be In Neverland 